Abominable Poetry

Found another oldie on my old blog that was on myspace, it was about this guy who critiqued a lot of the Myspace poets. This one was written March 28, 2008, so yesterday was it's 4th birthday:

If there is something so abominable in this world as you

Allow me to free myself from your reign of terror

And watch it from afar.

You send the scorching heat down upon us,

And we, defending ourselves,

Raise our voices in vain to the heavens

From whence your words,

They came.

 

You have lasted many years longer

Than many of us have been alive

To toil with our pens

And our blank pads of paper.

And we try not to stand in awe

Of the way you tear our work apart,

As though instead of stone

It is but a feathered bed of fragile stuff.

 

You slash through everything in sight,

No one can claim themselves safe from this attack.

Words that twist our hearts in the agony

Of having literary children,

That, by you, have been rebuked.

Yet we go on, knowing deep down

That those sacrifices made

Are the only way to make our way

Slowly, but surely ahead.

And those of us that can take it

In stride and continue on our way,

Bearing the new knowledge like a badge

Instead of being contrite

Like those that stand their ground and fight

And fall behind, slowly, but surely

Left behind because of their own vanity.

 

Oh, abomination,

That the multitude of voices claim that you are,

Help me to wrap my mind

Around its very own thoughts

To change them into jewels

Of worth, of magnitude

Something rare

That elsewhere cannot be found.

Turn my words to something,

That will cause a rush of feeling

And earn a certain grasp of that reality.

The reality that touches us all,

No matter how rich, how poor, how big or how small.

 

Again and again the words they are beat down,

But every time they get back up

They are that much stronger.

That much more ready to go forth in the world,

To hold their own against the other monsters

That make ours seem so calm.

And I watch each and each as they march on

From this spot in which I hide,

Trying to gain the strength

I need in order to put myself forth.

And meet the man who can tear me down,

Yet in the same breath give me the tools

To build myself back up and to travel on,

And share these words with the public beyond.

Nightbreed Project

I am going to devote as much time as I can to helping bring about public awareness and desire for the Nightbreed Director's Cut DVD. From what I've heard (particularly from the panel this past Saturday night) if enough people are interested then this DVD could be a possibility.

Blog:
http://bringbacknightbreed.blogspot.com

Facebook Page:
http://facebook.com/bringbacknightbreed

Please visit both and share share share!

Mad Monster Party 2012

Yesterday was spent in Charlotte, NC at the Mad Monster Party Convention. There was so much going on and so many things that we saw that it is hard to get everything straight in my mind. So I'm going to touch base on some highlights:

People we met:

Brad Dourif

Chris Sarandon

Bill Mosely

Nivek Ogre

Angus Scrimm

Craig Sheffer

Anne Bobby

We also were privleged enough to view the Director's Cut of Nightbreed. The added footage was just amazing, and made the movie finally feel complete. I was amazed and viewing Anne's tears just moved my heart, so more on Nightbreed in a later post, I have some research to do and somethings to set up to see if I can accomplish something...

Until then, I'm am going to catch up on some rest, still wore out from the star struckness of yesterday.

Crystal Defined

Like many others, I've been drawn into the world of pinterest.com I decided to make a board called Crystal Defined, this board made me want to elaborate on a few of the things that I have chosen to define me...

I am a jeweler (well not really, but it sounds cool), a quilter, an upcycler, lover of farm animals, extreme reader, fan of dolphins, NES nostalgia child, and a fan of Red Hill General Store.

These are things that have been relatively constant in my life, crafting is my meditation, I love playing with beads making necklaces and earrings. I enjoy quilting and sewing of any kind. I like to give something old new life and help it avoid going to the garbage dump. I grew up around my friend's farms and enjoyed feeding the calves, chasing the chickens, and playing with the goats. I have loved to read ever since I first learned how. I grew up obsessed with dolphins and have finally had a chance to be up close and personal with them. I am a fan of all things Mario. And Red Hill General Store was one of my first jobs in High School, it is amazing to see how much that small family owned business has grown.

I am still working on Crystal Defined. Both the pinterest board and in real life. I am working on getting back to me, to who I am and who I want to be. It has been a difficult journey thus far, but every step has been worth it.

I have come a long way since the depressed sad person who didn't know which way to turn or go:



But my journey is not through yet. I still have 55 lbs left to lose. But if I have come this far the rest should be attainable as well. Wish me luck on the last bit of my journey.