Getting laid off or having your position within a company be terminated can be hard. Especially in this economy. I've been dealing with having this happen to me within just the past week. The shock of it has finally worn off, the fact that I actually have a bit of free time while searching for another job is opening itself up to me.
However, with the stress of having just gone through surgery and then losing my job I managed to catch a hell of a cold. So this past week has also been spent trying to get better without going to the doctor because with the loss of my income I don't want to waste any money on things that can be avoided or done without. I'm finally on the mend and my fever has broken so I think that avoiding a copay at my doctor's office will be possible.
Thinking about things like that is a bit scary as well. What can I do without, what can I do to make our money stretch further right now so that we aren't facing foreclosure on our home in a few months if it takes me longer than expected to find another job. What kind of job do I even want to pursue...
It is like being a scared kid all over again, except now instead of being afraid of the monster under the bed, I'm afraid of putting too much strain on my husband, afraid of not finding another job, afraid of, well, everything. When you were nearly living paycheck to paycheck anyway losing a job is even scarier.
I know I'm not the first one to face this, especially in this economy, but for me this is a first time experience. I've never been fired or laid off before now. I've got a lot of emotions. Some are good, some are dark. But I'll just face this one day at a time as I do everything else. In the meantime I'm going to try to make more time for writing on here, writing for the Clive Barker Cast and writing my next book. I might even get the house cleaned in my spare time. LOL.
